ao3 user changgus wrapped 2022
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hwitaeksthe plus side of publishing significantly less this year is that this post is now easier to write. 2022 was another personally draining year so i didn't have much time or energy for writing but i'm not going to beat myself up for it and instead celebrate the fact that i wrote at all! and in that vein my only goal for 2023 is to finish something, anything. and also no fests. i mean it this time. yes, even if i said the same thing last year.
so let's break it down. in 2022 i wrote 24,587 words across four works and two and half fandoms. completed one fest and one absolute passion project that no one asked for. honestly, while i did not get out much this year - i do feel pretty satisfied with everything i did manage to publish.
let's go through them -
color me like you, hyojin/seungjoon, e
this and the work i published immediately after (that we'll get to shortly) were both mostly written in 2021 but i finished and published them in 2022 so they get to be on this list. ever since the day i got into onf and was made aware of seungjoon's slutty red shorts i wanted to do a little trope subversion and write about hyojin wearing them instead.
this specific idea had been percolating for awhile but i could never decide how i wanted to frame it. i think i originally wanted it to be much more lighthearted and humorous but i'm not really good at that type of writing and i think realizing and accepting that allowed me to actually get this done.
there is something about the hyojoon dynamic that is endlessly fascinating to me and i feel like i am constantly spinning it around in my head, trying to come at it from new angles. in this one i think that seungjoon's forwardness and also his ability to meet hyojin where he is really came through. i am biased because i love a game but the guessing game element of coaxing hyojin out of his shell is something i'm still really happy with. so while the tone of this fic is nothing like i originally imagined for it, i feel good about what it ended up being. if i could change one thing it might be the ending, just because i think it could've been a little longer, but that's okay.
two slow dancers, hui/seungjoon, m
so yeah this was mostly written before 2022 as well but wrapped up at the beginning of the year. i think the audience for rtk crossover fic has largely waned but as a professional huiologist and scholar i still think his relationship with seungjoon is one of the most interesting things to come out of that show and finding out about their night time drives altered my brain chemistry irreparably.
so i wanted to really explore their relationship through the framing of those drives. originally i planned for this to be much longer and in depth and pen was going write a sequel from hyojin's perspective in response to that but unfortunately i lost all of those notes to twitter's unsearchable dms and had to follow a different path instead. that being said, tonally this fic came out exactly as i wanted it to. i don't think this is a forever relationship for either of them, but that doesn't mean it's not an important one. i think they really understand and relate to each other and i think seungjoon brings out a side of hui we don't always get to see.
one of my favorite parts of this fic is this -
there is still more i want to explore with this pairing but i'm not sure that i'll get to it beyond sending frantic dms when things come to me. though i'm sure this will change if they ever publicly interact again.
burn in it all day, hoshi/seokmin, e
so i don't publicly participate in caratland very often however i have been a very passionate seoksooner for many years now and 1D fest was the perfect opportunity to finally commit to writing them. i did have a g-rated seoksoon up last year that i ended up deleting but the past is the past and we're here to talk about what has remained published.
from the second m told me about 1D fest i knew exactly what i wanted to do and that was seoksoon set to the tune of no control. i think it's absolutely insane no one else picked thee morning wood anthem for this fest but that's fine, more for me.
i don't really have much to say for this one it's pretty short and sweet. i still feel very out of my depth writing for seventeen and have not really found my confidence re: their characterization yet but people seemed to really like this one so for that i am very grateful!
head versus, hyojin/seungjoon, e
where to even start with this one. i think this and my love to lean on, my other large scale hyojoon endeavor, are two of the works i am most proud of and most satisfied with. i put so much time and work into this fic and i think it came out really close to how i wanted it to.
when i first started writing for onf, there were less than 100 works total, about half of those were hyojoon, and almost none of them were porn. since then i've made it a bit of a personal mission to fill some gaps in the tag. there's a lot of what i consider to be really classic and vital tropes still untouched for onf and fake dating was one of them. fake dating being one of my favorite tropes of all time, of course i had to do it for hyojoon.
it took me a long time to figure out how to approach this and how to find and angle from which hyojin agreeing to do it would feel believable and grounded in something. i know with a lot of tropes suspension of disbelief is kind of required but i still wanted it to read like it was them and for there to be some sort of base logic to build the foundation on.
this is the first fic i've ever written where i had more than one draft and did not simply edit as i went. the original draft was really sloppy, started a bit earlier in the story, and was not quite what i wanted it to be BUT i would not have gotten to where i did without working out all of those kinks.
there's some things from that original draft i ended up cutting because they just felt like too much (for example there was originally a scene where hyojin and seungjoon practice slow dancing for the wedding in their kitchen that i chopped, more detail about the initial conversation between seungjoon and his parents) and other things that ended up playing a much bigger role in the final (kyunyoon, little yuto - thanks largely to marcie's suggestion). this is the longest thing i've ever written and also with the largest cast. i think in all of my works characters other than the main pairing are mentioned but because most of my other stuff is so much shorter it's also usually much more narrowly focused. even my love to lean on, while a longer fic for me, was still really isolated to just hyojin and seungjoon by the nature of the setting. so this was my first real time writing this kind of level of ensemble. and it was really fun!
this fic was really hard, i constantly felt like i was losing the plot and the characterization and sent so many messages to marcie and pen losing my mind about it, but it was so rewarding to finally finish it and set it out into the world. i would really like to write more stuff of this scale in the future, as frustrating and challenging as it felt in the process.
you guys already know i love psychologically flaying hyojin open and i think this fic gave me an opportunity to do that through a different perspective than what i've written before. his emotional journey in this one looks different from, say, the one he goes on in my love to lean on.
my genuine only regret with this fic is that there's a couple of lines i wrote for the ending that i took out of the doc and moved into my notes while i was editing and finishing up that i straight up just forgot to put back in. and i know i could just edit it and put them where they belong, but i don't know, i think i let too much time pass. they're nothing crucial, but i kind of wish i'd remembered to put them back in.
this fic is also one where i was most surprised by which parts people were picking out as their favorites and really resonating with. for example i was NOT expecting the teeth scene to speak to so many people. that scene was almost not in there at all but i just felt that the story was moving too fast from the conversation that night into the next day and wanted something to slow it down. i was also really surprised by the reaction to my take on kyunyoon, i've always been a bit afraid to write them as much as i like them because i am truthfully very scared of writing minkyun and do not feel ike i understand him enough to do so. so i was really happy it seemed to read well despite that.
and that's a wrap! i hope that i'll have some fun things to share in this coming year but i think my main focus is just going to be enjoying this as the hobby that it is and whatever that may end up looking like. if anyone has any questions or comments about anything i've talked about here or any of the works i've shared in 2022, you can as always find my retrospring here. hope everyone had a good new years and that this year treats us all with kindness!
so let's break it down. in 2022 i wrote 24,587 words across four works and two and half fandoms. completed one fest and one absolute passion project that no one asked for. honestly, while i did not get out much this year - i do feel pretty satisfied with everything i did manage to publish.
let's go through them -
color me like you, hyojin/seungjoon, e
this and the work i published immediately after (that we'll get to shortly) were both mostly written in 2021 but i finished and published them in 2022 so they get to be on this list. ever since the day i got into onf and was made aware of seungjoon's slutty red shorts i wanted to do a little trope subversion and write about hyojin wearing them instead.
this specific idea had been percolating for awhile but i could never decide how i wanted to frame it. i think i originally wanted it to be much more lighthearted and humorous but i'm not really good at that type of writing and i think realizing and accepting that allowed me to actually get this done.
there is something about the hyojoon dynamic that is endlessly fascinating to me and i feel like i am constantly spinning it around in my head, trying to come at it from new angles. in this one i think that seungjoon's forwardness and also his ability to meet hyojin where he is really came through. i am biased because i love a game but the guessing game element of coaxing hyojin out of his shell is something i'm still really happy with. so while the tone of this fic is nothing like i originally imagined for it, i feel good about what it ended up being. if i could change one thing it might be the ending, just because i think it could've been a little longer, but that's okay.
two slow dancers, hui/seungjoon, m
so yeah this was mostly written before 2022 as well but wrapped up at the beginning of the year. i think the audience for rtk crossover fic has largely waned but as a professional huiologist and scholar i still think his relationship with seungjoon is one of the most interesting things to come out of that show and finding out about their night time drives altered my brain chemistry irreparably.
so i wanted to really explore their relationship through the framing of those drives. originally i planned for this to be much longer and in depth and pen was going write a sequel from hyojin's perspective in response to that but unfortunately i lost all of those notes to twitter's unsearchable dms and had to follow a different path instead. that being said, tonally this fic came out exactly as i wanted it to. i don't think this is a forever relationship for either of them, but that doesn't mean it's not an important one. i think they really understand and relate to each other and i think seungjoon brings out a side of hui we don't always get to see.
one of my favorite parts of this fic is this -
Before Hwitaek, there had only ever been one other person who felt so big. One other person who’d made him feel the kind of life-or-death, heart beating out of his chest, movie kind of feeling he’s feeling now.
They’d talked about it once, kind of, sitting knee to knee on the couch in Hwitaek’s studio over a greasy take out box of fried chicken - about being in love with your best friend, the way the world ends when he doesn’t love you back.
there is still more i want to explore with this pairing but i'm not sure that i'll get to it beyond sending frantic dms when things come to me. though i'm sure this will change if they ever publicly interact again.
burn in it all day, hoshi/seokmin, e
so i don't publicly participate in caratland very often however i have been a very passionate seoksooner for many years now and 1D fest was the perfect opportunity to finally commit to writing them. i did have a g-rated seoksoon up last year that i ended up deleting but the past is the past and we're here to talk about what has remained published.
from the second m told me about 1D fest i knew exactly what i wanted to do and that was seoksoon set to the tune of no control. i think it's absolutely insane no one else picked thee morning wood anthem for this fest but that's fine, more for me.
i don't really have much to say for this one it's pretty short and sweet. i still feel very out of my depth writing for seventeen and have not really found my confidence re: their characterization yet but people seemed to really like this one so for that i am very grateful!
head versus, hyojin/seungjoon, e
where to even start with this one. i think this and my love to lean on, my other large scale hyojoon endeavor, are two of the works i am most proud of and most satisfied with. i put so much time and work into this fic and i think it came out really close to how i wanted it to.
when i first started writing for onf, there were less than 100 works total, about half of those were hyojoon, and almost none of them were porn. since then i've made it a bit of a personal mission to fill some gaps in the tag. there's a lot of what i consider to be really classic and vital tropes still untouched for onf and fake dating was one of them. fake dating being one of my favorite tropes of all time, of course i had to do it for hyojoon.
it took me a long time to figure out how to approach this and how to find and angle from which hyojin agreeing to do it would feel believable and grounded in something. i know with a lot of tropes suspension of disbelief is kind of required but i still wanted it to read like it was them and for there to be some sort of base logic to build the foundation on.
this is the first fic i've ever written where i had more than one draft and did not simply edit as i went. the original draft was really sloppy, started a bit earlier in the story, and was not quite what i wanted it to be BUT i would not have gotten to where i did without working out all of those kinks.
there's some things from that original draft i ended up cutting because they just felt like too much (for example there was originally a scene where hyojin and seungjoon practice slow dancing for the wedding in their kitchen that i chopped, more detail about the initial conversation between seungjoon and his parents) and other things that ended up playing a much bigger role in the final (kyunyoon, little yuto - thanks largely to marcie's suggestion). this is the longest thing i've ever written and also with the largest cast. i think in all of my works characters other than the main pairing are mentioned but because most of my other stuff is so much shorter it's also usually much more narrowly focused. even my love to lean on, while a longer fic for me, was still really isolated to just hyojin and seungjoon by the nature of the setting. so this was my first real time writing this kind of level of ensemble. and it was really fun!
this fic was really hard, i constantly felt like i was losing the plot and the characterization and sent so many messages to marcie and pen losing my mind about it, but it was so rewarding to finally finish it and set it out into the world. i would really like to write more stuff of this scale in the future, as frustrating and challenging as it felt in the process.
you guys already know i love psychologically flaying hyojin open and i think this fic gave me an opportunity to do that through a different perspective than what i've written before. his emotional journey in this one looks different from, say, the one he goes on in my love to lean on.
my genuine only regret with this fic is that there's a couple of lines i wrote for the ending that i took out of the doc and moved into my notes while i was editing and finishing up that i straight up just forgot to put back in. and i know i could just edit it and put them where they belong, but i don't know, i think i let too much time pass. they're nothing crucial, but i kind of wish i'd remembered to put them back in.
this fic is also one where i was most surprised by which parts people were picking out as their favorites and really resonating with. for example i was NOT expecting the teeth scene to speak to so many people. that scene was almost not in there at all but i just felt that the story was moving too fast from the conversation that night into the next day and wanted something to slow it down. i was also really surprised by the reaction to my take on kyunyoon, i've always been a bit afraid to write them as much as i like them because i am truthfully very scared of writing minkyun and do not feel ike i understand him enough to do so. so i was really happy it seemed to read well despite that.
and that's a wrap! i hope that i'll have some fun things to share in this coming year but i think my main focus is just going to be enjoying this as the hobby that it is and whatever that may end up looking like. if anyone has any questions or comments about anything i've talked about here or any of the works i've shared in 2022, you can as always find my retrospring here. hope everyone had a good new years and that this year treats us all with kindness!
